Tuesday, July 14, 2009,
i've been thinking...
hmm... thinking about mr. dinglas, my papa's boss. i'm not so close to him.... i mean, i'm not really close to him, really. but i feel for my father. he is sad. but i'm worse, i cry. i don't know why. all i know is that i feel sorry for what's been happening to him.
well, mr. dinglas, bossing or "tatay" to my papa, is sick. he's been in the hospital for weeks. but now, he's coma. i never thought it was that serious.
few weeks ago, i'm getting mad because i thought they've been abusing my father. taking mr.dinglas to hospital, buying meds, watching over him, i think that's too much. i even told my father; "pa, pag wala na si sir, magresign ka na."; papa haven't gone home for 3-4 days, i think, because he's in the hospital. i can't seem to understand, he had sons and daughters (i'm not really sure how many are they), but they just don't have the nerves to bear taking care of their own father! they rely on papa, thinking "he's there, let's not worry". when papa's at home, they keep calling him asking if he could make his way back to hospital again ASAP. i overheard my father telling my mom that bossing's sons/daughters are just there to eat, to have a chat. they barely go inside their father's room. they also have the habit of lying, saying, bossing's in the ICU again, they need my father, blah, blah, blah... but worse is, since he's 2-day comatose (can you take note of that? for just 2 days?); they thought of taking his life support "to ease the pain". easing the pain of their father, is that's what they really want? i'm not sure huh.
yeah i know, bossing's having a hard time fighting for his life. but from my father's story, i don't think he wanted to die yet. kuya dennis; one of his sons; and "madir"; his wife; are the only ones still have faith that he'll get well; still holding on that "life support". but apart from them, count my father in, and the whole ilagan family. we're still hoping he'll get well soon. we owe him so much. my papa treated him as his father and so as bossing treated papa as his son.
if i were in their shoes, i would never do that to my father or mother. if i got all the chance, i'll be in the hospital, beside them. i'll grasp every hope that's left. i'll say every prayer, i'll do whatever i can do just to make them stay.
i've been praying to God; i'm asking Him to do what's best for mr.dinglas, if God thinks taking his life is best for him, let His will be done. but i'm still hoping, i do really hope that God thinks what i'm thinking.
*AMEN.
*** please help us pray for mr.dinglas' recovery... thank you...
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